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    July 12

    4th of July Party

     
    So my mom wanted to surprise me for my birthday and invited all of my family that is still around to their house for a cookout and fireworks just like old times when I was little.   I can remember going to Grandma's house and hanging out with my cousin's swimming in those little plastic pools you could buy for like $5 and shooting off fireworks.    I will have to dig some of those pictures out and add to my albums for reminiscing.   Anyway, my Uncle Philip and Aunt Donna and their oldest son Phil came.  My Uncle Leroy and Aunt Jarie was there.   My Grandpa and his wife Peggy was there.  Even my Mother and Father in law showed up to celebrate.   We had a really good time.   The kids had a blast shooting off their day works that we bought them.   Then when it was night time the big kids did those.  
     
    One of the day works that I got for them was a parachute thingy that shot out like 100 parachutes at the same time and you have to chase them down.    I tried to get a picture of the yard where most of them landed, but it didn't turn out very good.   So you will see a picture of Bug and my sister holding parachutes and that is what they were from.   It was hilarious.  The whole sky was full of parachutes in all different colors.   I tried to get good pictures of the night works this year, but they didn't turn out very well.   So I didn't put them on there.  
     
    I think that pretty much sums up my life thus far.    Got a busy day scheduled for today, Bridal shower at 2:00, birthday party at 6:00, games at 6:45 and 8:30.   WHEW!!!!    Talk to ya soon.  HUGS!!!!

    Good News

     
    Well This takes us back to June 27th.   They called all of us Temp empolyees in one by one to let us know whether they were going to hire us on full time or not.   I was one that was accepted.  YEAH.    So starting June 30th I became a full time employee.  No more worrying about whether or not I would have a job.   I can't even describe the weight that was lifted off of my shoulders.   For almost the previous two weeks I hadn't been able to eat.  I was really sick to my stomach.    I was real quiet and definately not myself.  On top of that we had 8 ball games a week with the last one being at 8:30 at night and not getting home until almost 11:30 some nights.  Then back up to go to work in the morning.    The moment that my boss said that I was getting hired I felt like myself again and man was I hungry  LMAO!!!!    I probably ate all day the rest of that day.  That was working out to be a pretty good weight loss plan.  
     
    Anyway so I now am working from 11:00 to 8:00 at night.  It kinda sucks to not be home in the evenings, but at least I can see the kids before they head out the door for school.    They are saying that as we rebid jobs over time I may be able to get my 8-5 back or something close to it.  So I will be keeping my fingers crossed.   
     
    Well, that's all for this one.   Time to move on to 4th of July.  
    July 07

    BIG PARTY!!!!

     
    Okay, so I am going to start with the weekend of June 21st.   I threw Bug and I a birthday party.   Her birthday is on 06/22/08 and mine is on the 4th of July.   She turned 6 this year and I am now the big "30".   I hear that the 30's are better than the twenties.  SO BRING IT ON!!!!!   People keep asking me why i'm not upset.    I guess cause I had to grow up fast getting married young and having kids early.   I will party hard after the kids are gone.  WHOOPIE!!!!!
     
    Anyway, the party was fun.  We did a cookout potluck style.    The theme of the party was Tropical Paradise.   A lady that I work with showed me how to make mexican flowers out of tissue paper.   They turned out really cute.  I didn't get any pictures of them though.  After the dinner we opened presents and had cake.  Then we all went up to the pool for a pool party.   NOW THAT WAS A MESS!!!
     
    I tried to call them about 10 minutes till to let them know we were on our way, just running a little late, but no-one answered.   I kept thinking to myself "I know I am not going to get there and there won't be anyone there"   Sure enough, we show up and it is empty.   No manager, no life guards.  NOTHING.     I was not happy.  I called everyone that I could think of to get the number for the pool manager.  Luckily there was a game going on at the ball field and I was able to talk to the director of the recreation commission who then contacted the manager of the pool and they had no record of me renting it for a party.   I had scheduled the party 3 weeks prior and made sure exactly how much, how many people allowed and how much extra for each person over that limit.   I had scheduled the party with the pool manager, but she was adamant that she didn't talk to me.   I was like whatever.   I didn't pay anything for the party and we still got it for 2 hours from 8:30 to 10:30.  We didn't stay that long cause it was getting cool outside and the water wasn't that warm.    The kids all had fun though.  
     
    OH YEAH, except for the fact that "J" almost drowned in the deep end becuase the lifeguard that was sitting in the chair was too busy facing the other direction talking to someone else and not paying attention.   Luckily my BIL was there and jumped in and grabbed him.   It wasn't until they had him out of the water and he was lying on the concrete trying to catch his breath that the life guard noticed something and almost looked concerned.   I WAS NOT AT ALL HAPPY about that.  I made sure that the director of the pool heard about that and the fact that the rest of the time, the other life guard when he was sitting in the chair decided to have  bag of sunflower seeds in one hand and a cup to spit them in in the other.   He was not watching the pool either.   Anyway needless to say we won't be having a party there again anytime soon.  
     
    Okay so I think that is enough for one entry.   I will do more later. 
     
    HUGS!!!!
     
     

    I'm ALIVE!!!!

     
    Really I am, you are just going to have to trust me on this one.   My life is finally in balance (for the most part) and i will have much much much more time to spend on here  (which i will need to catch back up with all of you)  Don't you guys know that your world was suppose to stop while i was away LMAO.   Anyway, this one is going to be short, but i wanted to let you all know to check back soon, cause I have a lot to say.   CAN'T WAIT!!!!!
     
    HUGS!!!!
    May 17

    Man oh Man..........

     
    I didn't realize that I hadn't been on here in a while.    I am still waiting to hear if I am going to be hired on full time.   I was told they would know by the end of this month.   I am keeping my fingers and my toes crossed in hopes of a full time position.  
     
    Last weekend was super crazy busy.    Saturday my brother and our foreign exchange student graduted from high school.    The ceremony was really good.   The cops had to step in a couple times.   During the valedictorian speach someone had blown up some beach balls and threw them into the audience and they started hitting them around.   They confenscated those.    Then when one of the kids went up to get his diploma his whole family had blow horns and they came up behind them and confenscated those too.    But other than that it was nice.  
     
    Big Daddy's Cousin also gradutated that day so he had gone to that party while I went to  my brother's.  when it was over I went to the church where his cousin's party was.   Then after that was over went back to my mom's to visit with family and friends from out of town and didn't get home until about 12:30.    
     
    Sunday morning Wolfeman decided to surprise me with breakfast in bed.    It was SOOOOOO sweet, and shall I say not so yummy.    He had fixed me frozen waffles and they were still cold.  He had forgoten to turn the toaster up to frozen foods.    Then he put a rather thick layer of butter (which didn't melt cause the waffles were cold) on top.   He then got out a few strawberries and sliced those and put them on top then another layer of waffle, butter and strawberries.   Made me a piece of toast and brought me a glass of OJ.     He was so proud of himself and I ate almost every bite.   I finally made Big Daddy start eating some too.    I know that it is the thought that counts and I made him believe that it was the most wonderful thing ever, but I told Big Daddy, now I know what my mom felt like when we made her breakfast in bed.   LMAO
     
    Later that afternoon we went to the neighbors for their annual Mother's Day Cookout.    Had a lot of yummy food and conversations.   My friend Jaime came out with her kids and we hung out that night.   Big Daddy finally loaded up the swingset and got it out of our yard and got it ready to take to the neighbors.    The kids were kinda upset about it, but I told them they could go over there and swing all they wanted.  I just didn't want it in my yard anymore.     The kids asked if we could put up the Trampoline and Jaime said "You guys have a trampoline"   with a spark in her eye like a kid.   I said yes and she started in with the kids.   "Big Daddy can we please put up the trampoline".   So we got it down out of the attic and put it all together.   She was the first one to get up there and jump around.   I will have to get those pictures from her and put them on here.  it was pretty funny.   
     
    This weekend I am just chillin' and kickin back.  I rented a bunch of movies and my friend Jaime is coming out to spend the weekend.   We are going to clean out the pool and get it ready to be opened.   Then sit around and watch movies.   I rented Juno, Untraceable, 27 dresses, Over Her Dead Body, and Mad Money.    
     
    Anyway, I need to get off here and get going to town to get groceries or we won't have anything to snack on.    Have a great weekend all and a great week.  I will try not to stay away so long next time.   :-)    HUGS!!!!!!
    April 27

    Girls Night Out!!!!

     
    Oh man, I had a much needed Girls Night Out last night.   My Friend Jaime and I went out to dinner, then went to see Fools Gold.  MAN IS THAT AN AWESOME MOVIE!!!  My Matthew was super sexy in that movie.   He even took off his shorts and I was SOOOOOO close to seeing it all.   Shucks.  I did get to see a butt cheek.  That made me happy.     Anyway, after the movie we decided to go to O'Dooly's an irish bar in town and just have a few drinks and talk and catch up.   Sitting beside us was a crazy lady who kept talking to herself.   We swore there had to be someone there somewhere we just couldn't see them.   The bartender overheard us talking and walked over and said that she does this all the time.  She comes in and drinks a few beers then starts talking like there is someone there.  She laughes and seems happy.   Jaime and I decided that it must be a ghost who joins her.  It was kinda creepy though and hard not to stare. 
     
    There was also a bachelorette party going on as I noticed the bride-to-be was wearing a white vail with small plastic penis' on it.   I am getting ideas for my sister's bachelorette party.   I was surprised though when I saw my optometrist there.  Then I realized that the whole office was there.  It was one of his receptionists getting married.  And the groom-to-be was there as well.    I watched as my Optometrist was dancing around like a crazy Irish man who had had way too much to drink.   I couldn't help but laugh.   I don't know that I will be able to look at him the same way in the office.  Not that it is bad that he goes out and has fun, but just the fact that the man looked like a monkey on coke dancing around the floor.   He actually is a pretty cool guy.   He rides a Harley and has a real down to earth personality.  
     
    Anyway,  after 3 SUPER STRONG drinks and 3 hours later we made our way to the cars to drive ourselves home.  I had been drinking water the last 1 1/2 hours so I was fine, but tired.    I definately need to do this more often.  Sometimes it is nice to just hang out with a girlfriend and talk and drink and be silly.   I would definately recommend it to anyone.    Well gotta go for now.  I have a super busy day today.   Baseball practice, dinner with my parents for my brother's birthday then finish cleaning and laundry.    Have a great weekend and week.  HUGS!!!!!
    April 16

    Our Wedding

     
    I have added a photo album of our wedding to share with all of you.   Also the song that I have playing was the song that was played at the wedding.   I hope that you all enjoy!!!! 
     
    HUGS!!!!
    April 13

    Happy Anniversary!!!!

     
    Well our anniversary isn't really until the 17th, but Big Daddy and I decided to celebrate this weekend.   My sister had the weekend off for work and said that she would keep the kids all weekend for us.  So who was I to say no LOL!!!   We drove up to Kansas City Friday night and stayed at the Chateau Avalon.   OH MY GOODNESS..... That place was awesome.   Each room has a different theme.  It was very romantic and comforting.   The bathtub was HUGE and the bed was super comfortable.  My only complaint was that the pillow was too hard.   I like mine thin and soft and this was thick and firm.   But other than that it was nice.   I have put pictures above of the hotel and our room.   Waiting in the room for us when we got there to check in was a bottle of cider and wine glasses in a bucket of ice.  I had purchased from the hotel a set of flameless tea lights and they had them arranged around the tub and turned on.  The radio was on and playing soft romantic music.    It was awesome.   We took a tour of some of the other rooms that night and I have made a list of the ones that I want to stay in.   Here is the link to check it out --Chateau Avalon
     
    On Saturday we ate breakfast in bed then laid around the room some more.  We decided to get cleaned up and head out to explore KC.   If you notice in the picture of the tub it has one of those shower heads that is removable.   Well those aren't all that they are cracked up to be.    It took us about 10 minutes to figure out how to get the shower head to work.  Finally we got it on.   So I got in and took my shower first.    I noticed when I turned around and faced away from the shower head that water was still coming out of the faucet.    I reached down and pushed on the button again.   Next thing I know I hear Big Daddy say "Honey, what are you doing??"  I looked and the water pressure had increased and water was shooting out of the tub and hitting the floor.   I reached over and turned the water off real quick.  We were both laughing so hard I just about peed myself.   He then walked over to the shower head and I pulled it off of the base and we turned the water on again and was messing with it.  Finally I said "Just leave it alone I am getting cold and I want to finish my shower"  I started to put the shower head back on its base and Big Daddy said "Honey, are you trying to clean the whole room.  I looked over and I had pointed the shower head towards the outside of the tub and the shower curtain was open just enough that the carpet over there got wet too.    Once again, I busted up laughing.   I told him if I never see a shower like that again it would be too soon.  
     
    After we finally got everything cleaned up and packed up we checked out of the hotel and headed to downtown KC.  We had decided to eat at Jack Stack's BBQ.   It was REALLY good food.   We got an order of Mushrooms for an appetizer.  I was expecting those little button mushrooms.  OH MY GOODNESS.... the mushrooms came out and they were in slices about 1 inch thick and they were as big around as a pop can.   We got 10 of those.   I had ordered BBQ Chicken and Big Daddy ordered Ribs.   About 5 minutes after our appetizer came out our food came out.   We ate a little of our food and saved room for dessert.   We got the Carrot Cake.   OH MAN, that was some good cake.  I don't like carrot cake and that stuff was awesome.  
     
    After we ate we went to the Steamboat Arabia Museum  If you ever get a chance to come to Kansas City I would definately recommend you visiting here.   This is a modern day story of treasure hunting.   The things that they found and were able to recover is amazing.  I have also put some of the pictures in the album for you.   They said that they still have about 15 years worth of restoring to do.  The Steamboat Arabia's cargo hold was fully loaded with items to be delivered to several little towns along the Missouri River when it went down in 1852.  It is really an amazing story.   They are currently working on digging up another sunken steamboat called Steamboat Mars.   I can't wait to see what they are able to find aboard that boat.  
     
    Well I guess I need to go for now.   I will get those pictures uploaded hopefully tonight and I hope that you enjoy them.  HUGS!!!!
    March 24

    Easter

     
    Well Easter went really well this year.  We had the family here for our 2nd annual family Easter dinner.    I stuffed eggs for all the kids to find.   After the first year didn't go so well, last year I decided to assign each child a color of egg to find.  That way they all had the same amount and there was no fighting over who got the most.   This year Wolfeman was yellow, "J" was green, Bug was pink, Big Dog was blue and Abra Cadabra was purple.   They each had 15 eggs to find.   My sister and her fiance and his cousin and I hid the eggs while the other adults kept the kids blocked from the windows so they coulnd't peek.   The menu consisted of ham, mashed potatoes and gravy, home grown corn, macaroni salad, pea salad, potato salad, develed eggs, angel food cake, chocolate cake, jello dessert my sister made (YUMMY) and home made cinamon raison bread that Grandma made.    We were all really stuffed and ready for a nap by the time the evening rolled around.  
     
    Saturday evening I had everything all ready to fill the kids' baskets.   Their eggs were stuffed.  Wolfeman got camo eggs, "J" got Transformers and Bug got Tinkerbell.  I filled them with candy and they each got a $1 coin.   Bug also got a necklace to replace the one that broke.   Big Daddy and I put the kids to bed and decided to watch a movie.   Part way through the movie I started falling asleep so I turned the movie off and we went to bed.   I woke straight up at 4:30 Sunday morning and realized that I forgot to put out the Easter stuff.   OH SHIT!!!  were my exact words.   Big Daddy sat up and said "WHAT"   He thought that something was seriously wrong.  I told him I forgot to put the stuff out.   He was like "You woke me up for that" and rolled back over and went back to sleep.   I filled the baskets and took a quick picture or two and then I went back to bed.  Wouldn't you know it I laid there and tossed and turned and couldn't get back to sleep.  I finally dozed off somewhere around 6:00 and my alarm went off at 7:00 to get up and get things ready for lunch.  
     
    I can't even imagine the story I would have had to come up with had I actually completely forgot and the kids woke up to no Easter presents.   I would have had to fill their baskets and hide them outside and tell them that the Easter bunny decided to make things interesting this year and see if they can find them.   I am used to making these things up on the fly.  No wonder Bug is such a good story teller.  She gets it from me.  
     
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    Well Big Daddy is making his way up through Nebraska tomorrow and won't be back until Wed night so that means that I have THE WHOLE BED TO MYSELF.  WOOOO HOOOO!!!!  No-one to grope me in the middle of the night.  No-one to steal all the covers and no-one to hit me in the head in the middle of the night.    All kidding aside, I will probably hae to have one of the kids sleep with me cause I hate being in there alone!!!!  There are boogie men in there and they will get me if I don't have protection.  LMAO!!!!
     
    I guess that is all I have for now.  I need to get off here and get ready to watch CSI.  New episodes are finally airing tonight and I can't wait.  I have seen enough of the re-runs.   I hope you all had a great Easter and have a great rest of the week. 
     
    HUGS!!!!!
    March 06

    IT'S ALMOST FRIDAY!!!!!

     
    Well, I haven't really had much time to get on here and type.  Just a few sentences here and there, so here is an update. 
     
    As of 1:00 yesterday I was finished with my training and have been moved out to the floor.   I am working at a gas company as a customer service representative.  So basically all you people who have questions about your gas, I get to take your call.  I am sitting with a wonderful mentor who is helping me a lot.  I finally took some calls myself this afternoon after lunch and did pretty well.   She was impressed.  The people around me thought that I had done this before.  I told them I have never worked at a call center before.  They told me that I was a natural.   I WAS EXCITED.   That made me feel really good.   Now for the awkward thing, my husbands boss' wife is my boss.   I told her that if I fail and get fired that she can't have her husband fire my husband.   She just laughed and said it didn't work that way.  
     
    I think now that I am getting more comfortable that I am going to like it.  Plus remember how I said that the pay is good.  Well i found out today just how good.  It is about $3.00 more an hour than I had originally thought to start full time permanent.  I am looking forward to these BIG BUCKS.   It is a union atmosphere, so once you get in you are pretty much there for good.  Most of the reps there have been there for 10+ years.  There are a few temps that have been there about 9 months still waiting to get on full time.  But let me tell you it is definately worth the wait.  
     
    Things have been going good with the kids.  They are finally all healthy.  I think all of the sickness (knock on wood) is gone from the house.  We aired it out last weekend when the weather was sooooo nice.   Bug is finally starting to adjust to mommy working again.  She started pulling her pranks again and I got called in to the teacher's office for a PT conference.   She was not handling me working very well.  By the time I get home, fix supper, clean up dishes, get kids bathed it is bedtime and we don't have our "quality" time any more.  I am trying to make time before bed to read her a book or two or just spend some time talking with her.   The boys are doing good with it.  They don't seem to mind.  
     
    Our Financial Peace University classes are just about over and we have been doing really well.  We will have almost all of our debt paid off next week.  We will only have part of a credit card left and our Home Equity Loan.  Then we will have everything paid off except the house.   I am looking forward to that.   I would definately recommend to anyone who is having problems financially to go to the website and find a class in your area.  This stuff is awesome.  It is Christian based and is based on what is found in the bible.   Since we have started these classes the devil has been hitting us hard trying to get us to stray.  He wouldn't be working so hard if this wasn't good stuff.  
     
    Well guys,  I am going to go for now.  I miss you all and really wish that I had more time on the computer to stop by to see all of you.  I will try to do that this weekend if I find some free time.   Love you all and I hope that you have a great FRIDAY and WEEKEND!!!!  HUGS!!!!
     
     
    March 04

    False Alarm

     
    Well I finally figured out what happened and it was a false alarm.   Someone decided to link one of my blogs with a website called StumbleUpon.com.  Apparently that is a website that you can link to, to get more hits on your webpage.   I don't know who did it or why they did, but I can't get rid of it.   SOOOOOOO unfortunately no matter what I do I will always be linked there (unless someone else knows a way to avoid it)  PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE  DO NOT LINK MY BLOGS TO WEBSITES WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!!!!   I think that it is only right that you ask that person permission before doing something like that. There is no way that I would do something like that to anyone else.
     
    OKAY that is all for now.  Gotta go finish dessert.  YUMMY!!!!  HUGS!!!
    March 03

    Private

     
    I have decided to make my page private at least for a while.   I was a little disturbed to find that I have had almost 2000 hits to my page in the past week.   When since I have had it open since February I had only had 900 hits.   I don't know who this is or why they have chose me, but I am not taking any chances with my babies.    Anyway.  I don't have anything else at this time.  Have a great week everyone!!!!  HUGS!!!!
    February 27

    Wow, it's be a while!!!!

     
    Well guys it has been a while since I have been on here to update.  I didn't get the job at the school, but I did get the one paying big bucks.   I have been in training and taking LOTS of tests.   I don't remember the last time I had to take this many tests.   It is fun for the most part, but hard at the same time.  Everyone in there is dropping like flies with the flu/cold stuff.   Out of 10 of us 4 have had it.   I started feeling kinda yucky this morning, but I stuck it out and by the afternoon I was feeling better. 
     
    Bug had the flu Wednesday and didn't feel good this morning. Big daddy got it this morning so Bug stayed home and took care of him.   I am hoping that I stay healthy so I don't miss any time at work.   Our deep freeze died again (the new one we had to buy last May).  The service guy came out today and said that the motor went out so it needs to be replaced.   Hopefully the part comes in and it gets fixed before we have to pick up our beef.  
     
    Well that is really all for now.  Just thought that I would at least give you something to gnaw on for a while until more interesting things occur.  Hope you all have a great rest of the week and weekend.  HUGS!!!!
    February 15

    So Small!!!!

     
    So Small
    by Carrie Underwood
     
    What you got if you ain't got love?
    The kind that you just wanna give away
    It's okay to open up
    Go ahead and let the light shine through
     
    I know it's hard on a rainy day
    You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
    But don't run out on your faith.
     
    Well I was at the bottom of the barrel the other day.   I was feeling very defeated, useless, and not worthy of the life I have.   This is the second job that I have lost and even though it wasn't at any fault of mine I still felt worthless.   I mean really, who can't manage to hold on to a job, right?   Well I felt something tug at my heart and realized that this was the Devil talking.    This song came on the radio and I started singing along with it like usual and I started crying.   I cried so hard and it felt so good to get it all out.    As God would have it the next song that came on was  "I can only imagine" by Mercyme.  Once again I felt my heartstrings being tugged.   God was telling me that he loved me and that he was proud of me no matter what and that his love is UNCONDITIONAL.  It doesn't matter to him if I have a job or if I am the most perfect (well as perfect as one can be) person in the world.   All he asks for is my love and faith in return and I had been lacking in that department.  
     
    Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
    And what you've been out there searching for forever is in your hands
    When you figure out love is all that matters after all
    It sure makes everything else seem so small. 
     
     
    On Wednesday I was in a pretty sour mood when the kids got home from school.   I was in the middle of getting supper ready and I asked the kids to go get their clothes baskets and get them sorted so that I could start laundry.   I was pretty short with them a couple of times.  They just seemed to be in the way.    They said mommy come and see what we did.  I am thinking "oh great, what mess am I going to have to clean up now".    I walked out to the living room and this is what I saw: 
     
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    HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY MOMMY, WE LOVE YOU!!!!
     
    It's so easy to get lost inside
    A problem that seems so big at the time
    Is like a river that's so wide
    It swallows you whole
    Why you sitting around thinking about what you can't change
    And worrying about all the wrong things
    And time's flying by
    Moving so fast
    You'd better make it count
    Cause you can't get it back
     
    Wow, let me tell you, I grabbed those babies of mine and I hugged them tight and we sat there and cried for a while and we rolled around on the floor and played in those dirty clothes and laughed.  Yeah, I burned supper, but who cares, I can always make something else, but this time with my kids was precious.   Well let me tell you that mountain that I thought I was climbing was truely only a grain of sand.   I have two job offers right now.  One is working at the school again which I am really hoping that I get.  The other is working for a really great company that pays considerably more than what I would make at the school.  But I think you can guess that to me money is not as important as being able to spend time with my kids and husband.   I can always make money, but I can't ever replace the time that I miss with my children.   I really hope this helps open your heart to God's message of how time short is.  
     
    I Can Only Imagine
    by MercyMe
     
    I can only imagine what it will be like
    when I walk by your side
    I can only imagine what my eyes will see
    when your face is before me
    I can only imagine
     
    Surrounded by your glory, what will my heart feel
    Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
    Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
    Will I sing Halleluja, will I be able to speak at all
    I can only imagine
     
    I can only imagine when that day comes
    and I find myself standing in the sun
    I can only imagine when all I will do
    is forever, forever worship you
    I can only imagine
     
    What a great heavenly Father we have.  So caring, faithful, forgiving and true.  Let him fill your heart with joy. 
     
    Much Love,
     
    Jamie!!!!
     
     
     
     
     
    February 08

    Still heading downhill!!!

     
    Well as an update to my previous blog, my dad came out and decided that it was too risky for him to try and unload the skidsteer because of the crappy condition of our wonderful dirt roads so he called Big Daddy and told him that he couldn't get my car unstuck.  So Big Daddy in turn sends me a text message saying "dad couldn't clean the driveway so I guess you are stuck digging.  Make sure you wear your bibs LOL"  Aww hell.   He then said "I will help you after the taco feed tonight".   Well isn't that just sweet. His idea of helping is watching me do it and telling me what I'm doing wrong. 
     
    About 11:30 I get a phone call from the school saying that Bug isn't feeling well and is looking and acting really tired and all she wants to do is sleep.   So I called grandpa and had him go pick her up and put her down for a nap.  By God if she is tired at school then her little butt is going to go to bed and sleep.   She gets to grandpa's house and is acting fine and wants to watch cartoons.   Grandpa tells her "no, your momma said that you are to come here and take a nap".  She was not happy with that decision and proceeded to tell grandpa that she wasn't tired and didn't need to take a nap.  He then told her "well do you want me to get your momma on the phone and you can tell that to her"  She said no and went in and laid down on his bed.   He said that within 5 minutes she was asleep. 
     
    After I got home from work I decided since the sun was out and a lot of the snow had melted I would try and see if I could get my car unstuck.  It still wouldn't move.  So I went in the house and put on my snow boots and grabbed the snow shovel and dug my car out of the snow.  Can you say "SUPER WOMAN" I was flinging snow everywhich direction as I was discussing my displeasure of the weather with God.  I am pretty sure that he heard me loud and clear as did the neighbors for 5 miles each direction.  LMAO     I did finally get it out and pulled it back under the carport.
     
    Today started off much better with everything under control.   I got to work like normal did all the work that was there for me and then went to lunch wondering what I was going to do afterwards since everything was done.  After lunch my boss called me into her office and told me that today was going to be my last day.   They don't have enough work to keep me busy and she can't afford to pay me anymore.   Well Hells Bells!!!!  I think that this week should be deleted and I need a do-over.  Anyone else out there with me on this.  Maybe if we all wish for it at the same time it will come true.  READY.  1.....2......3.... I WISH FOR A DO-OVER WEEK Well at least I tried. 
     
    I come home and decided this would be as good a time as any to shave my ooooooh sooooo hairy legs.  I haven't shaved in probably 3 or 4 weeks.  Man I could braid that stuff.   While I was in the tub my phone rang.  I decided not to answer it.  I checked the message when I got out and it was Bug's teacher telling me that Bug was saying that she was going to throw up and she was just laying around.  WHAT THE HELL  I called Big Daddy and told him to call the teacher back and deal with it.  I took care of it last time, it was time for Daddy to do some talking.   I haven't found out yet what came out of the phone call, but I am sure that I will hear about it tonight.  
     
    Well, I think that is all for now, but I am sure with the way things are going I will have more to rant and rave about tomorrow.  I am so glad that all of my mishaps can bring a smile to all of your faces.  LOL
     
    HUGS!!!!!
    February 07

    ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!!

     
    I have to say that I am rather cranky today.   We got a fricken blizzard on Tuesday night that dropped about 10" of snow on us.  The kids didn't have school yesterday cause the roads were so bad so we were stuck in the house together.   We did have some fun playing games.  I taught the kids how to play Skip-Bo.  That is a game that my grandparents and I used to play ALL THE TIME.  I really miss them and I miss playing it.  Now that the kids know how to play maybe we can play more often.   Anywho,last night wasn't too bad.  There was a really tall drift behind my car and I plowed through that so that I could go to the store and get some groceries and Big Daddy and I took the kids out to dinner.  Chinese food, YUMMY!!!   When I got to my driveway it took me 3 tries to get my car up the slight grade through the tall ass snow and get in my spot under the carport.  
     
    This morning was the ENOUGH IS ENOUGH moment:  I thought that the kids had missed the bus, cause at 7:30 this morning I still hadn't seen her.  She usually stops around 7:15 or so.   So I got them all together with their coats and backpacks and we headed out to the car so that I could take them to school.   We got in the car and got buckled up.  I told them to hold on I was going to have to go fast to get through the snow behind me.   We made it through the snow, but I had to stop and put it from reverse to drive.  Well I was stuck.   I tried reverse, didn't move, Drive, didn't move.  Mother beep beep beep beep.  I said a few choice bad words that I told the kids that I better not ever hear them say and just then the bus went by.  SHIT, was the next word to come out of my mouth.  
     
    We have two driveways one East of our house, (which was the one that I was stuck in)and one West of our house (which is the one the kids are usually standing in for the bus to get them).   I got them out of the car and told them to run down to the end of the East driveway and she would see them and stop and get them.   NOOOOOOOOOOOO, was I wrong.  She kept on going to the West driveway so the kids had to run up the road to the bus in the hopes that she would see them and not take off.   They did get on the bus and went on their way to school.   Wouldn't you know, I am still stuck in all this damn snow.   Luckily Big Daddy took the 4x4 truck to work this morning and the van was still there, unfortunately the car was stuck a ways behind the van.  I had to do a lot of praying and hoping that on my way out I wouldn't run into the car on my way out.   I did make it and headed to work. 
     
    Let me tell you ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.  Only in Kansas can you have 65 degree sunny weather on Monday and Tuesday have a fricken blizzard.   I called my daddy and asked him if they were doing snow removal today :-)   He said just around the house why?  I told him that I was hoping I could sweet talk him into plowing our driveway and getting my car unstuck.  He started laughing and said that he would see what he could do.  I am going to owe him big time for this.  Big Daddy said that I was going to have to dig my own car out.  I think I will just let him think that I did and cleaned off the driveway also.   HE HE HE HE I am mischevious aren't I.   
     
    Hope you all are having a better day than me and have a great weekend.  
     
    HUGS!!!!   
    February 05

    My Wedding!!!!

    I stole this from Becca.  Thought it would be fun to remember.
     
    1. What year were you married? 1999
     
    2. How did he ask you? We were in Chanute for the 4th of July and we left my cousin's house and drove to the lake to watch the fireworks over the water.   He turned to me and said that he had to ask me a very important question.  I looked at him and said "okay".  He asked me if I would spend the rest of my life with him.   I was shocked.  I of course said "YES".  
    3. Where did you honeymoon? We went to Kansas City and went to the Zoo, ate at the Cheesecake Factory, went to the Steamboat Arabia Museum. 
     
    4. Can you still fit in your dress? Not yet, but I am working on that. 
     
    5. What was your worst gift you got? I can't say that we really got any bad gifts.  We registered for stuff that we needed and people bought from those registries.
     
    6. What flavor was your wedding cake? Vanilla, Chocolate and Strawberry
     
    7. Were you a bridezilla? Well with my mom you kinda have to be, but I really wasn't to the extreme they show on TV.   
     
    8. Whats one thing you would change about your wedding? I would love to have had a dance.  Curt didn't want one and I did so we didn't have one.  Well you better believe we will be having a dance.  Oh yes we will!!!!
     
    9. Do you still look at your wedding pics? Oh yeah, my sister in law made me a scrapbook for our wedding that went back to my showers and prepwork and the wedding and the honeymoon.  I pull that album out a lot and look at it. 
     
    10. What colors did you use?  Navy blue and white
     
    11. Where did you tie the knot? First Christian Church, Overbrook, KS
     
    12. Whats one funny thing that happened that day? To be honest, I really don't remember much about that day.  I was so nervous and wish I would have slowed down enough to actually enjoy it.   Oh wait, there is one thing that Curt will never let me live down.  When the minister said "you may now kiss your bride" we went to kiss, but we never practiced that part and he ended up kissing my cheek.  
     
    13. How many showers did you have? I had 3
     
    14. Did you cry? We were both sobbing like babies the entire time.   Neither one of us could talk very well.
     
    15. Did you give any wedding favors away? No we didn't.
    16. Who caught the flowers and garterbelt? I really can't remember.  I will have to think on that one.
     
    17. Who did the wedding for you? We didn't hire anyone, we did it all ourselves.
    18. How much was your wedding dress and all ? A lot more than I wanted to spend on it.  I think it totaled around $800
     
    19. Was there dancing? See #8
     
    20. Would you go back and do it over again? Yes I would in a heart beat.
    February 04

    Tears of a broken heart!!!!

     
    I have been having problems with my little Sunshine getting up on the counters and knocking over glasses and spilling them all over the place.  He had even been known to get into food and drag it all over the house.   I have been boiling about this for a while.   Saturday morning I woke up to find that the two brand new loaves of bread that I had bought at the store on Friday night had been ripped open and part of the bread had been devoured.    I WAS HOT.  And that was an understatement.  I called Big Daddy who just happened to be helping his brother move and haul hay and told him to have his brother take care of him once and for all.    He suggested that I just take him to the local shelter since we have spent quite a bit of money on him and let him be a pain in somebody elses ass for a while.   Well that night it sunk in that I was getting rid of him and I started crying.   Big Daddy was in the shower and I was laying on the bed.  Sunshine came in and layed next to me and when he noticed that I was crying he crawled up to me and started licking my tears.   That just made it worse.  He snuggled up to me and purred like crazy.   He always knew when I was upset and always tried to make me feel better. 
     
    So Sunday morning Big Daddy wakes me up and tells me to make sure Sunshine is in his cage before I leave for church cause his brother is going to come and get him and take care of him.  (I am sure you all know what that means).   I told him no, that I was going to take him to the shelter and drop him off. 
     
    Soooo that is what I did.  I cried all the way up there.  I did finally get some composure about a mile from the place, but when I pulled him and his carrier out of the car I started getting teary eyed again.   I went in and filled out the paperwork and gave them all of his shot records and couldn't talk cause there was a lump the size of an elephant in my throat.  She took him from me and I went out to the car and cried myself all the way home.  That was the second longest 45 minute drive of my life.   I felt sick the rest of the day.  I didn't sleep good at all Sunday night and everytime I would think about him I would start crying again.  
     
    Usually in the morning when I am sitting on the toilet Sunshine will sit outside my door and stick his paw under the door to play with me.  When he wasn't there this morning to play I started sobbing and felt sick to my stomach.  The next thing I know I grab the trash can and start throwing up.   I LITERALLY was sick over this damn cat.   I decided then and there that I had to go get him back.   So I called the shelter and he was still there and I told them that I was coming back up to get him and asked when they opened.   She told me 11:30.  I was there sitting in the parking lot waiting at 11:00 for them to open the doors. 
     
    I went in and filled out more paperwork to get him back.  The lady went in the kennel room to get him and came back out.  She asked me if I could go in here with her to make sure that she was getting the right one cause he kept hissing at her when she would try and get him out of the cage.   I walked back there and when I got in the room I called out his name.  As soon as he heard my voice he jumped up and ran to the cage door and stuck his paws out for me.   She said he hasn't been like that at all since he had been dropped off and it was possible that he never would have been adopted because of it.   My heart sank.  I put him in his carrier and we went home.  I gave him a bath cause those kennels weren't the cleanest and then we cuddled the rest of the afternoon.   
     
    I never thought that losing an animal could make a person physically sick, but let me tell you it can.  
     
     
     
    January 31

    We survived......

     
    Big Daddy and I sat down last night and did out first budget Dave Ramsey style.  I was really gearing up for a knock down drag out fight, but we really didn't even argue.  We added up all of our expenses and subtracted it from our income and really wasn't even suprised when we got a negative number :-(    
     
    Oh well, you gotta start somewhere, right???  I am still looking for full time employment.   I have been told that I am too picky, but I have to say that I am spoiled.  I haven't had to work nights or weekends for quite a few years and I like having my family time.  So if that makes me picky, Hell Yeah I am!!!!   I don't think I could get use to not seeing my kids as much as I do. 
     
    I would definately hate missing their ball games.  Basketball this winter and baseball this summer.   Those are two of my favorite sports to watch.  Bug even signed up to play basketball. on the sign-up sheet it said that you had to be in the first grade so we didn't sign her up and she was heart broken.  Then on the first day when we were meeting with the coaches they said that if there were any other kids who wanted to sign-up to play even kindergartners that they had extra shirts.  She was jumping up and down yelling "ME ME ME, I want to play".  The director walked up to her and handed her a shirt and she was SUPER excited.   She does pretty good even though all she does is run from one end of the court to the other.  She really doesn't know what to do with the basketball yet.   She holds it and grins from ear to ear then tries to throw it to whoever she can see, even if they aren't on her team.  
     
    Big Daddy tries to give her a hard time saying that she can't play cause she is a girl.  I just smack him and tell her that I am very proud of her for getting out there and trying.  Even if she isn't that good at least she is out there getting exercise and not sitting on her butt like some other kids that I know getting fat playing video and computer games. 
     
    I am hoping to get some pictures this Saturday and then I can post them on here.  
     
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    I am so tired of all of this damn snow and cold weather I could scream.  I need some warmth.  Give me the SUN....... At this point I am thinking that it is going to be June before we get any kind of warm weather at all which means that we may have to push back the joint birthday party for Bug and I.   Since our birthdays are only 2 weeks apart and I am turning the big 30 this year I decided to do a party for the both of us.  It is going to be a pool party and she even picked out the cake at the Bridal Fair that we went to with her Aunt Sandy.   It is a pretty cake and really isn't that expensive.  It was 6 tiers high.  I told her we could do 2 and that would be plenty of cake for everyone.   She was happy with that.  I can't wait to start planning it.   I LOVE planning parties. 
     
    Anyway, I guess I better go for now and get back to work.  Take care all and have a great rest of the week and an awesome weekend.  HUGS!!!!
    January 28

    What a weekend!!!!

    I really had a good weekend.   I started out Friday working at the school in the body walk.    They have this HUGE tent thingy that they set up and the kids get to walk through it and they have people who tell them about what different parts of the body do.  I got to be the small intestine.   I now know more about that part of my body then I ever thought I would want to.  HE HE.    It really is neat and the kids just love it.   Especially the small ones.  The older ones couldn't care less.  
     
    Saturday I went to KC with my friend Jaime and went to the Great Wolf Lodge (yeah I know, AGAIN).   She was having her daughter's 13th birthday party there and needed help with some kids.   She couldn't find anyone else that could help and she was already going to be using my van, so I told her that I would go up and help out.   It was a lot of fun.   I have never been there without my own kids, so I was able to ride more of the bigger slides and didn't have to worry about losing my children.  
     
    Saturday night for dinner we went to Cheeseburger in Paradise.  They have REALLY good food.  I ordered an El Cubano.  It is a sandwhich on Cuban bread and it has ham and salami and another meat, lettuce, tomatoes and onions.  It is really good.   Well the waitress forgot to put in my order so the food came out about 7 minutes after everyone elses.  She told me she wasn't charging me for the food and apologized several times.    So I bought a few more drinks with that extra money  LOL!!!!!!
     
    Sunday we got up and ate breakfast then went swimming some more.   I only stayed down there about an hour and then went back to the room and took a shower to get ready to leave.   We left and headed home around noon.  
     
    Big Daddy and I have decided that we need to get our finances under control instead of our finances having control of us.   Luckily my parent's church was starting a financial program taught by Dave Ramsey.      Click Here to check it out!!!!  I really didn't think that I was going to like it.  I thought "man this is going to be BORING".   Well I was wrong.   This guy had us rolling we were laughing so hard.  Then on the other hand he was telling us what we had been telling ourselves for years now that we need to QUIT USING THE CREDIT CARDS Unfortunately that is easier said than done.   We went to our second class this Sunday and we are starting to feel more confident about getting started on a budget.   If we get on track now maybe we can retire as MILLIONAIRE'S.  WOOOOO HOOOOO!!!!!  Seriously though if you are having trouble at all with your finances and your money being stretched tooooo far, this is a great resource to get you back on the right track.  
     
    Okay, okay, I am done for now.   I will come back later and let you know how our progress is going.  HUGS!!!!